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My cinema-related curatorial practice (film programming)
focuses on community-based programs regarding (mostly) short
and documentary films, archives in relation to queer/migrant experiences
My cinema-related curatorial practice (film programming)
focuses on community-based programs regarding (mostly) short
and documentary films, archives in relation to queer/migrant experiences
CURATORIALS
Cinema-related
- Annual
Xposed Queer Film Festival Berlin 2022 / 23 / 24
Short Film Festival Hamburg 2022 / 23 / 24
Celestial Festival Berlin 2022 / 23
Ladyboys United
Short films program on “ladyboy” ie. Southeast Asian queer terminologies (Kathoey, Bakla, etc.)
June 2024 / Haus der Kulturen der Welt Berlin - part of program “O Quilombismo!”
(HKW website)
(It’s all because of a Kathoey, Thailand’s first LGBT film from silent period
- 1953, Courtesy of Thai Film Archive)
unthaitled x KAUM Film+++festival 2023 “Wandering Salon”
Film screenings, discussions, workshops, expanded cinema perfomances, citywalks
(co-curated with Phuong Phan, Hai Nam Nguyen, Lisabona Rahman, Gugi Gumilang, Rosalia Namsai Engchuan)
May 3-13, July 2-9, October 3-13 2023 / Sinema Transtopia, Uferstudio, Flat Family, Cafe Karanfil, Vierte Welt Berlin
Text by MISSY MAGAZINE (DE) ein revolutionärer mobiler Salon: unthaitled x KAUM Wandering Salon 2023
Cinema of commoning 2022
International conferences, discussions and film screenings
on cinema spaces as site of commonness and alternative model for better future /
(curated by Sinema Transtopia: Can Sungu and Malve Lippmann)
Feb - 24-26 June 2022
(bi’bak website) (Cinema of commoning website)
Common Cold: un.thai.tled Film Festival 2021
Film screenings and discussions on Thai common histories during Cold War /
(co-curated with Rosalia Namsai Engchuan)
November-December 2021
(bi’bak website)
Imagining Queer Bandung
Film scrreenings, Filmmaking and Podcasting Workshop for queer BIPoCs -
for the anticolonial queer alliance from the Global South /
(co-curated with Popo Fan and Ragil Huda)
June-August 2021
(bi’bak website) / (queer asia website) / (facebook)
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Touring screenings at :
- Queer Film Festival Munich, October 2021
- Hamburg International Queer Film Festival, October 2021 (previously “Lesbische- Schwule Filmtage Hamburg”)
- Sinema Retakes & Revisions Series at Sinema Transtopia, December 2021
- BIPOC Sunrise Dortmund Special Screening at Endstation Kino Bochum, December 2021
un.thai.tled Film Festival 2020
Film screenings and discussions on Thai cinema, geopolitics and identities
& Film-workshop for BPoCs with Pimpaka Towira and un.thai.tled Collective
(co-curated with Rosalia Namsai Engchuan)
September-October 2020
(bi’bak website)
︎ Thai Film Screenings Berlin 2019 at Moviemento
︎Thai Evening in Berlin 2019 at Schalet
Exhibition breaking-through of un.thai.tled collective (August 2019)
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My curatorial/research is based on histories and social activism
of the Southeast Asian (and queer) migrants in the divided Germany
(which means, former socialism in the East, and “liberalism” in the West)
My curatorial/research is based on histories and social activism
of the Southeast Asian (and queer) migrants in the divided Germany
(which means, former socialism in the East, and “liberalism” in the West)
CURATORIALS
Contemporary arts-related
In Nobody’s Service
Group exhibition on Thai and Filipina women/queer migration histories to West Germany (Bundesrepublik)
Part of collective un.thai.tled’s artistic research into the topic / Galerie Wedding / 7th March to 18th May 2024
(Website)
(E-Flux)
(Podcast EP - Oroko Radio) (Podcast EP - Cashmere Radio)
(TAZ Article - “Nicht mehr zu Diensten”)
Where is my karaoke? How did we meet?
Archive corner at “Echoes of the Brother Countries” / Haus der Kulturen der Welt / March - May 2024
(Publication can be ordered at Archive Books)
Where is my karaoke? Let’s sing along and sing away
Mixed media and archival material installation on Vietnamese, Laos and Cambodian music and histories in former East Germany (GDR)
(co-curated with Phuong Phan)
Part of “Re-Connect: Art and Struggle in Brotherland” (curated by Sithara Weerathunga and Marcus Hurttig) /
Museum der bildenden Künste Leipzig / 17 May - September 2023 /
(Website)
(Publication can be ordered at Hirmer Press)
Where is my karaoke? Still, we sing
Exhibition and programme on Vietnamese, Laos and Cambodian world-making practices and exchanges in former East Germany (GDR) /
(co-curated with Phuong Phan)
Art Space D21 Leipzig / 25 May - 2 October 2022
(D21 website)
Beyond the kitchen: Stories from the Thai Park / Archive of Thai migration in Germany
March-July 2020; ongoing research
(museum website)
at Bezirksmuseum Charlottenburg-Wilmersdorf, 2020 / funded by Senatsverwaltung für Kultur und Europa, Bezirksamt
Charlottenburg-Wilmersdorf and Goethe-Institut Thailand
Charlottenburg-Wilmersdorf and Goethe-Institut Thailand
I associate the song “A New Error” with my sexual identity
Since I have realized I have become “A New Error” in this “Old Error” world
And I have been fighting many wars – between me and outside, between me and myself
And there is no unity, no peace, no satisfaction, no sign of rest
While I am bleeding and breathing hard,
I feel something – long gone forgotten –
It’s my pulse; my heartbeat
I – AM - ALIVE
Thus I declare my self-independence
I declare my independence from the gay scene
As I, blasphemously, question things that run on this superficial surface
Things that govern our identity, like we are the slaves
Things that quality-control, so that we will be allowed to use word “LGBTQ” on our mask
Things that haunt us, since the beginning of time, and frontline since the 60s/70s -
Something that our ancestors went against, and we rebuilt –
And this is not an act of surrender
To Berlin, to the gay scene
That always wants a piece of me - tries to break my self apart – redefines who I am,
Because being “queer” means “to open and accept the difference”
Because being “queer” means “to share and take care - of the fallen and the risen”
Because being “queer” means “to be freed – and to be loved”
There are still many battles to fight – even more, after this declaration –
But I will do, following footsteps of our ancestors, of those who died for our rights
If you read and listen to my voice,
Let hold hands together,
We are all to blamed, for this curse – that we constructed,
That we imposed on our identity
From now on, I will let myself be guided ONLY by “love and care”
I will feed the society with my positive vibes (in my own way)
I will take responsibility on my shoulders – although none other do
I will feed the hunger with my lips – the hungry, sex-addicted bodies, with my wild freed soul
I will love, and love, and love – and accept, and respect, and fight
Homo Manifesto
This is written, as a reaction to Hustlaball Berlin 2017,
Why should I let other people decide what should I dress, which color should I fit?,
Other than black, leather, latex, sports – while the LGBTQ flag is rainbow?
Why should I let them bareback, or play me like I am a toy?
While I was born as individual intellectual human being – with heart and soul?
Why should I follow your inner fetish bodily commands – while mine is more about the soul?
And why should this heart and soul be called “old-styled” or “romanticism”?
As they are always part of us, what defines who we are – and our preferred pronouns?
Why should I follow the whispers into the wild night, to consume, more and more?
As they slowly forget how to be satisfied with what they have – especially, appreciate what they already have?
Why should I let my identity be defined by your system of identity?
As identity can’t be shaped by someone else, but by individual self only?
- And not through clothes, not through parties, not through drugs, not through sex positions,
not through music, not through lifestyle, not through culture, not through the outside things;
Identity is defined by ME – only by being ME
No more – I won’t let it.
I will try to stand strong, I will raise new against the sun and neonlights,
I am tired of faking, I am tired of the surface – like a snake longing for new sheddings,
I will open my mask and let the sunlight in, so I would feel the warmth – of humanity (if it still exists),
of friendship, of sharing-and-caring, of multicultural multiracial multi-identity diversity,
This is me, this is my voice
I am gay, and I am proud to be gay
This is written, as a reaction to Hustlaball Berlin 2017,
performed by Moderat; courtesy of BPitch Control Records
Why should I let other people decide what should I dress, which color should I fit?,
Other than black, leather, latex, sports – while the LGBTQ flag is rainbow?
Why should I let them bareback, or play me like I am a toy?
While I was born as individual intellectual human being – with heart and soul?
Why should I follow your inner fetish bodily commands – while mine is more about the soul?
And why should this heart and soul be called “old-styled” or “romanticism”?
As they are always part of us, what defines who we are – and our preferred pronouns?
Why should I follow the whispers into the wild night, to consume, more and more?
As they slowly forget how to be satisfied with what they have – especially, appreciate what they already have?
Why should I let my identity be defined by your system of identity?
As identity can’t be shaped by someone else, but by individual self only?
- And not through clothes, not through parties, not through drugs, not through sex positions,
not through music, not through lifestyle, not through culture, not through the outside things;
Identity is defined by ME – only by being ME
No more – I won’t let it.
I will try to stand strong, I will raise new against the sun and neonlights,
I am tired of faking, I am tired of the surface – like a snake longing for new sheddings,
I will open my mask and let the sunlight in, so I would feel the warmth – of humanity (if it still exists),
of friendship, of sharing-and-caring, of multicultural multiracial multi-identity diversity,
This is me, this is my voice
I am gay, and I am proud to be gay
King Arthur
(3/7/2016)On the bridge
Waiting
Loud sirens of your crime
Black taint tars
Belong to us to figure out,
In case you want to;
Where does it come from?
And also why?
Why have you been holding them so dear
If I let,
a flower could arise in words
Bear my question fruitful,
Lastly turn your face away
So unbearable face,
A crime
Through is through
A hole,
A rose, outside the ring
My winterheart
Stitches past with wither
Blade in reflection
A beauty
Will no longer find ways back
All kept in this
Sharp moment, between two edges
That, one, should have pierced you
In order, for another, to pierce me
In equal thorns
I realize and feed
Touching black liquid
Bleeding back in
Bow myself to madness of
Echoing words;
As answer to their own
Echoing questions;
That should fit perfect
In written list of hunger men
In foreshadow
Who shield arrows and artilleries
Legacy
- But if you decide to run,
Then become please, more than pebbles,
Right, as stone
Despite centuries in the deep
Hold no wonders in selves
One simple word that I used to reply,
Now it is to subside,
Everytime, on this uncanny space between black and white
Nobody waits
We all just try to make a better sense;
Locked in stones,
In your heart as well
So who could take it out shall be crowned.
It could be easily, your own legacy
If you never would object
Two hands on, together
Steel
Although won’t save your life
Won’t spare a single
Then, could somehow bring you home
Waiting
Loud sirens of your crime
Black taint tars
Belong to us to figure out,
In case you want to;
Where does it come from?
And also why?
Why have you been holding them so dear
If I let,
a flower could arise in words
Bear my question fruitful,
Lastly turn your face away
So unbearable face,
A crime
Through is through
A hole,
A rose, outside the ring
My winterheart
Stitches past with wither
Blade in reflection
A beauty
Will no longer find ways back
All kept in this
Sharp moment, between two edges
That, one, should have pierced you
In order, for another, to pierce me
In equal thorns
I realize and feed
Touching black liquid
Bleeding back in
Bow myself to madness of
Echoing words;
As answer to their own
Echoing questions;
That should fit perfect
In written list of hunger men
In foreshadow
Who shield arrows and artilleries
Legacy
- But if you decide to run,
Then become please, more than pebbles,
Right, as stone
Despite centuries in the deep
Hold no wonders in selves
One simple word that I used to reply,
Now it is to subside,
Everytime, on this uncanny space between black and white
Nobody waits
We all just try to make a better sense;
Locked in stones,
In your heart as well
So who could take it out shall be crowned.
It could be easily, your own legacy
If you never would object
Two hands on, together
Steel
Although won’t save your life
Won’t spare a single
Then, could somehow bring you home
The Lamp
(12/11/2015)Lamp that burns
Worse; let itself badly burn
An object with purpose attached
When it lays its function wide
Thanks to that after-effect
Meaning the beloved is dominated
Against its will – for its greater will
Forming thick, floating in the air
Beyond my attainment;
With eyes teary, until they crash
It’s ecstatic drum-slates, to each jumps
Miniscule testing evidence
Damn hard-head it is;
Born out of red bright substance
Dance of death closest, by the shore?
Or is it rather denier, who lies,
About coiling facts that shatter that fragile
Piece of commemoration?
So please don’t forget
More importantly, the way the wind blows
Ground soaked in swept objects
Your laying dare insistence
causes the hidden to be found
In a way unsupposed
To original of their own;
Thanks for long endurance
For generations past and to come
We’re left to face - alone
The fire dies out
And it is no more
Buddhist Monk
(6/8/2013-2015)That is, again, a provocation, itches in their enduring silent bald
Forcing someone an order, and sacrifice your own humane?
How and who, can a man possibly grab such halo?
A light, a blacklight -
How can a man possibly retrieve semblance,
the flow of dead silver veins down river;
to join with the mad, the fool, in the wiser’s mind
where heart is located, at distance
on big lotus pedal
dropped by gold’s salt,
to transform beyond gold’s blood
And all else will be done before
it turns silvery and slips
Back in, smiles?
Smile of the rich, smile of the poor, the glowing teeth,
of satisfaction, up for man’s deliberate contempt
meditating their own kind
making senses circle of irony all over
When they cut his hair, it’s his throat
When they wash away his soul, Is it cleansed?
or colden?
In that courtroom, by judges; I really want to ask;
ask what whether is he a man, or beast painted
or fleshflash skin?
How can you let someone, another unknown,
criticizing, perjuring our own type?;
What you are, causes you to be not
You walk, and you slow in front of me,
No worry I have no harm – and you have none,
Since I have hoped so -
Until we see the knives, in your own
pure hands, majestically white
My Craft
(11/10/2017)I try to perfect my craft
While you lay legs across
One hand teaching me obedience
Twist the stick and throw
I’m in order to catch up with better phrases
For it’s my fault to kneel
That I’m once a noble
With umbrella
To satisfy you well
Light will turn off soon before dawn
My heels will meet into
Pouring sand
Shapes like smiley face of
Passengers
Who stare at my nose
Or my expertise
One-sided fur, perhaps million euros
Wet full, heavy with rain
Spring tears in my eyes
To see clearly
Who is right and who has right
Which is not the case
For I am the satisfying
and pushing myself hard to be
It has been a while
We sit together sewing machines
You deliver your pastcode
And scroll down
Continue desire to desire
And I, reckless sleepless creature
Haunting in black cage
All-sided blinding
Yawn loud
Majestically
Subliminally
As the lower shits
Back fort, front back
Smack, suspire, your fist
And your cock cleavage
broke my umbrella cords
breaking apart details we needed to confront
no more
My paws pelled off this nails
And tanned back call
Operation desire
If I indeed had thousand wings
I would know where to go
Only if I’ll freeze midair
Break apart
As if I will
Shatter
To thousand more prisms
In your goddamn rainbow stripes
Over the laughters
Curse
But these claws are too calm
at peace and even vulnerable
To worth given
By archaic voices
I’m not hearing myself
I’m not hearing you
Nor even sound of the rain
Pouring right in my ass
Gone into pixels and partial self-explaination
All such muscles deserve self-exclaimation
I’m but just an ignored dried leaf
in floating plane weary
My voice could contain certain
Decibels of freedom
If there was nay at all
As a craftman